In January I will turn 50. Some people hesitate to divulge that sort of information, 29, 39 or 49 and holding are fairly popular 'ages'. For me 50 is a miracle and I am insanely excited to see it happen. For someone who was preoccupied with thoughts of suicide for a very large portion of my life achieving 50 is an incredible accomplishment and I am incredibly grateful that I've gotten to 49 and 10 months (Woot!) so far.
I haven't posted much because I've just been busy living, going through 'normal' ups and downs but always happy to still be here. Last night something happened that may seem fun but not a huge deal to someone else, but to me was a very big reward for sticking around. Little background:
For my 18th birthday my high school boyfriend (a really wonderful guy) and I went to see Evita on Broadway. I had gone through my first major Depression (first of many to come) just a few months before, I was looking forward to beginning college, majoring in theatre and I was crushing hard on one of the few musicals that really appealed to me. I was also crushing on seeing Mandy Patinkin as Che. The show was great, really truly great. Patti Lupone kicked ass like nothing I'd ever seen and overall it was a wonderful experience, except for one thing. We had ordered the tickets well in advance and it never occurred to us, it was unthinkable, but Mandy Patinkin was not in the show! An announcement was made at the top that night was the first night of the new Che. Mandy had his final performance the night BEFORE we went! It was a bitter blow, but the show was pretty damned wonderful so... you know... it was okay... but still. It's something that has always stayed with me, that I missed seeing that magic of Patti & Mandy together in that show and that I missed it by a single day.
Well this is where sticking around pays off. These two wonderful performers are together on Broadway right now - and last night I got to see them with my very best friend, Gary. He actually got the tickets, bless him. They did a couple of songs from Evita, so in some way I finally DID get to see them together in Evita* - it just took a little over 30 years to happen. The thing that rocks my head is that I could have missed this too! If I'd taken my life as I'd planned (just around this time of year in 2004) I would have missed this. It's not something I ever thought about 'might happen', it certainly wasn't something I was wishing would happen. But what a wonderful surprise, reinforcing the truth that you just never know what is around the corner. Living is the only way to find out what wonders might come next, and I think turning 50 is going to be freakin' awesome!
|Gary and I try to grab some Patti & Mandy glory|
*Mandy sang "Oh What a Circus" and holy shit, it was fantastic. So I finally do forgive him for leaving Evita the night before I saw it, I'm sure he's relieved. ;)